Maddison is in preschool, at home.

Maddison is in preschool, at home.  A teacher comes to our house on Fridays.  She is a delightful, wonderful woman.  She is teaching me ways to teach Maddison.  It is a county run program, which I am not sure if I am paying for or not.  I use to pay for all of her therapies that we received through the county so I might still be paying. I was supposed to send her to school come September.  I just couldn't do it.  Well, I was kind of leaning toward taking her but her daddy wasn't.  How lucky am I though, that the teacher comes here. I get the best of both worlds.
Monday is picture day at the school.  I want to take Maddie, how adorable to have her first school picture done.  They are having a play date for the students October 20 but that happens to be The Buddy Walk this year. When we do decide to let her go, I do believe Maddie's teacher will protect her.   I do believe she will love the other children. I am just not sure they will like her.  She loves to hug soooo much, I am worried another child might not like all the affection. We've had that experience before.  She is so stubborn, if she wants to give a hug you better be ready for it.  If anyone has any experience with sending their child to preschool, I would love to hear it!!!!  I want to send her so she can be in circle time, but it's just such a hard thing to let her go without me......

Day 2 (A note to Maddison from her momma.)

A note to Maddison from her momma.

To my adorable, wonderful, amazing little girl.  Two and half years have just flown by.  I have loved every minute with you!  Your beautiful, funny, and extremely smart.  Your signing is amazing.  Your really trying to form words, and you can match things so quickly.  I'm having such a fun time raising you.  You make me smile everyday.  I really couldn't ask for a better little girl. I would love to take you to the first doctor we saw and say to Dr. Doomsday, (our made up name) YOU WERE WRONG!!!!  There is more than just the statistic that people who have children with Down syndrome stay married longer and we have children who are more empathetic.  THERE IS ALSO THIS, MADDISON.  Something and someone that is so wonderful, you left that part out.  I wish I had the courage to go to that doctors office and sit outside of the door so when women walked in for their sonogram, or amnio they would see the truth.  They would see Maddison. She is not scary, or difficult, she is wonderful and full of love to share, with everyone.  

Oh my little Maddison the happiness you brought to my life is really indescribable.  May you always know you are loved so very much from your momma. From the second I finally got to see you in the NICU to this very moment, I love you and you complete me!  I look forward to our life together!  You and Me and Me and You!!  

  

Oct 1 Down Syndrome Awareness Month

October is Down Syndrome Awareness Month!  As a mother of a daughter with Down Syndrome, I would like to pledge to write everyday for the month of  October with the hopes that if one person reads our blog, then they will see Maddison through my eyes, and if it makes them happy, makes them understand, or just gives someone hope, then I will be thrilled.
My little girl means the world to me.  I have a slightly different view of someone with special needs.  I simply adore them, and seek them out.  (I always have) I truly believe it has always been my calling to work with special needs children.  Little did I know it was God's plan to give me a child with special needs.  I never really went through the why me stage.  I am one to usually think "Why not me me?"  I never went through a grieving stage for the daughter she wouldn't be.  I did however wonder how the world would except her.  But I have realized it really doesn't matter.  Her father and I, along with her 3 siblings, and lots of wonderful family members, are the only ones who will be her constant and will protect her, and will love her unconditionally.  I am thankful that I have found so many people who have such wonderful children and that whether the people know it or not I consider them close friends.  I have learned so much through reading other blogs.   Okay...okay.... my fussy pants is ready for bed....more tomorrow and the next day and the next day..........